#11

Tonight is one of those nights.

Something inside me breaks

and the darkness creeps in

like a fog,

sickly swirling around my heart,

sucking the color from my eyes,

leaving me heavy and weightless

at the same time.

My mind wanders to the past.

The sister I never knew,

blue eyes and blue jays,

that last letter and a loaded gun.

And I think about going on

with pieces of my soul torn out

and I can't.

I just can't get past the fog in my own head.