Tonight is one of those nights.
Something inside me breaks
and the darkness creeps in
like a fog,
sickly swirling around my heart,
sucking the color from my eyes,
leaving me heavy and weightless
at the same time.
My mind wanders to the past.
The sister I never knew,
blue eyes and blue jays,
that last letter and a loaded gun.
And I think about going on
with pieces of my soul torn out
and I can't.
I just can't get past the fog in my own head.