December 19, 2009

The End of an Era

Lately I have been thinking a lot about my life. A few weeks ago I was cleaning out the coat closet and I found an old video camera with about 20 tapes dating from as far back as 1994. It was so fun to look back and see myself and my family all those years ago. They also made me really sad because I finally realized that those years are over for me. I'm an adult now and that scares me. I miss being little and not having a single care in the world. I miss my imagination. I miss who I used to be.
I was so happy back then and could have cared less what people thought. Now it seems like I am always trying to prove myself to others. I feel like it's my responsibility to make a name for myself; that task is pretty daunting considering I don't even know who I am yet. I know I am still really young and have a long while to figure that out, but it's as if the clock is ticking faster and faster and I'm afraid I'll run out of time before I figure everything out.

Maybe I'm just over analyzing everything to death, but it's genuinly how I feel. Now that school is over, I've had time to think. The majority of my thoughts have drifted back to some of my favorite memories: Summer's at my Grandparent's house, growing up in West Valley and South Jordan, best friends, having my first crush, Brookwood, Albion, starting high school, having a first love, college... it's all too much. It's kind of like I'm on the outside looking in. I wish I could go back and relive everything. Even the hard times, because life is beautiful even when it hurts. That's what my life has taught me so far. 

December 14, 2009

The Princess and the Frog

I have a new favorite movie. The way I know a movie is really good is based on how many times I cry. This one, 4 times, maybe 5. Tear-Fest Numero Uno was right as it was starting when it played "When You Wish Upon a Star" with Cinderella's castle and the fireworks... I can't help it, I'm a sucker for all things Disney. I could hardly contain myself during the first few scenes, I had been waiting for months to see it. It was so AMAZING! Needless to say, I will be seeing it again tomorrow. And probably a few times after that :] And the moment it comes out on DVD, it's mine.

December 12, 2009

Light Up Mississippi

I can hardly believe this year is nearly over. It was like just this morning I was ringing in the New Year with my best friend by eating Hershey's Kisses since we didn't have boyfriends. And now here I am, nearly a year older and all the more wiser. I managed to survive my last trimester at Brighton nearly unscathed. I celebrated my new lease on life by getting out of town for a week with my mom in the most beautiful place in the whole world. I spent the entire summer getting to know and spend precious time with my grandmother. I started college at a school I have dreamed of going to since I was little and made it through my first semester. I met tons of new people and made friends to last me a long while.

Everything that has happened so far this year has taught me many lessons: 
5. Forgive those who have wronged you, ask for forgiveness from those you have wronged, and put what is in the past behind you.
4. Live without expectations. When life doesn't measure up, it sucks.When you have no expectations, everything seems to work out no matter the outcome.
3. Slow down and enjoy the small things of life. You only live for so long, and once it's gone, it's gone for good. Don't live in a hurry, you have no where too important to be not to stop and smell the roses.
2. Notice and show gratitude for God's hand in your life.

And probably the most important thing I have learned this year is...
1. Let time work itself out. If something was meant to be, it's moment will come along when you least expect it. Live in the moment and let each moment take your breath away.

Brody's Christmas Card

Brody made my best friend Rachel a special Christmas card. She is pretty much his favorite person in the world.
"My owner Julia was kind enough to send this to you via her facebook page at my special request. I wanted you to know that you are my secret human lover. I will love you forever and for always (just as long as you rub my tummy and scratch behind my ears). I hope you think of me, your secret doggy lover, during this joyous Christmas season.

With much love,
Sir Brody Pearce

PS- Wuff
PSS- XOXO (X=bacon strip, O=doggy biscuit)"